Love is.. Carried By Confidence.

.. because you were always the easiest to talk to.

5.31.12

Dear You,
   Whenever I couldn’t explain something about our relationship I would always use the excuse “love kinda does that to you”. Sometimes I miss us, and today is the first time in a long time since I’ve cried over you. They say you never get over love. They say the pain is worth it sometimes. They say it’s hard but nothing worthwhile is ever easy. 
   I want to let you know that I’m moving forward. You’re the one who says that if it’s meant to be, it’ll happen again. I guess I am taking your word for it. I’m also taking your word that if I think a guy will treat me right to go for it and if he hurts me to leave. I’ve found a couple of nice guys. It’s kind of nice. I mean. None of them are serious, but it’s been a while since I’ve had fun. I’m going on dates. I met this really nice guy named Ben. He’s taking me out again this weekend. We talk about maybe me becoming his girlfriend but I know it’s not real. I’m not even ready. But he’s nice. So, I’m giving him a shot.
   Also, I’m leaving in December for college. It’s official. Mum agreed, so I’m working on my grades and trying really hard to be able to get out into the real world. I’m really excited. Don’t worry though. I promised you I’d be at your football games, and I want to be there for graduation. You’re still a big part of my life even if you’re not directly in it.
   You’re still the best. You’ll always be one of my favorites. Don’t forget, okay? 

5.31.12

Dear You,
   I scrolled.. it kept going and going. When I finally hit the first post and the page stopped moving, my heart jumped. Is that what it’s like when we fell in love? We kept going and when we hit our dead end everything just stopped? 
   There’s a whole lot of forever to look forward to in front of us. “I love you” may never be spoken between us again how we imagined it would, but you were still my best friend. If you come back, you still can be.. if you want. 
Love,
Janelle 

5.31.12

Dear You,
   I prayed for you last night. No, I don’t think I deserve credit for that. I just want to let you know that I still care.
Love,
Janelle 

5.31.12

Dear You,
   Things are so uncertain, right now. I’m so sorry for what might happen. 

5.29.12

Dear You,
   I’ve been so vague lately because there are things I don’t want you to find out. I haven’t been “me”. I’m on my way to figuring out who exactly I am. I already know who I want to be.
Love,
Janelle 

5.28.12

Dear You,
   I promise to be better. I am going to be better. 

5.28.12

Dear You,
   I built my own desk. I am proud of myself. 

5.28.12

Dear You,
   I’m doing stupid. Lot’s of it. 

5.28.12

Dear You,
   My late nights can’t keep being like this. I can’t keep texting you at 2 in the morning hoping you’ll text me back because I know you won’t. I can’t keep hoping and waiting. It’s not healthy for me. 

5.28.12

Dear You,
   I’ve been on so many adventures lately. They’re all things that you would have never taken me on. It all just shows, I can do things that you told me I could never do. I’m stronger than I look.